I went swimming today morning. The last time I tried, it was before my exams started. So today was a little tiring, back breaking, and muscle aching. I swear, I was sure my muscles had atrophied. Anyway, I timed myself for a lap and was surprised that I still had the same time as I did many years back: 48 seconds. As many swimmers will know, thats pretty slow.




After that, I got a call that Granddad got admitted back into hospital today. =( He was running a slight fever that eventually broke, but the doctor said to keep him there as he had a low white blood cell count. So he's going to be there until his count returns to normal. So after a hurried lunch with Leo, KJ and Cliff, I left them with their Sins (of the Solar Empire) and went down to SGH. In the bus, well, I kinda dozed off. The two weeks of exams and the morning's swimming had worn me out. And no surprise, I missed Outram bus stop, woke up right after the bus moved off. And I found myself in Chinatown.

Ah, Chinatown. Looking about, I sat in the bus till I saw Chinatown MRT station, which I then took back to Outram, then walked to Ward 48. Far. And I found out that my aunty (dad's sister) had bought a wheelchair(she kept referring to it as a 'transporter') for my Grandfather. Of course, we didn't let him know, or he'll freak out. You wouldn't like being reminded you're weak right?

That aside, I found my Granddad pretty well, just slightly discomforted that he had to spend the night in the hospital with no confirmed discharge date. I insisted in staying there till the night, but he refused, asking my aunty to take me home. I can't say no to him.

So here I am, blogging because well, I don't really have much to do. Chatting on MSN with my dear friend(s) does help pass the time. Thanks. =)

Its the holidays.

And I find myself with quite some time on my hands. Unfortunately, that means that I'll have time. Time to look about, time to think about friends who you want to be more than friends, time to laze around, time to decide. I don't want to. I want to enjoy life as it is, one job, work, one after another, no stopping to think. Spontaneous decisions. I don't want to pause, to look behind actions and words, to seek out meanings that are not there. But somehow I can't. Its natural to be curious. Its how I am. But I try my best not to.

Change...



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'In a way, I need a change