blogging from school.
6 more days to go. yeah, it is THE MSTs but, i do not think i'll do well. i mean, after all that has happened, i'm not in the mood to study right now. i'm hardly listening durning classes. case in point, right now. the lecturer is muttering something about out personal-based-independent-learning thing and i'm blogging. bored? no. trying to reach out to someone? maybe.
i, most people in class thinks i'm smart. i'm not. everything you see me do is fake. its not true. its not what i am. and i hate myself for making people think that i am. i sometimes wonder if this is all true?
sorry. i'm so sorry.
i just want to go home. sleep and forget everything. but i have to study, because it what i do. and i hate it. but its what i do and i must do it. this is screwed up.
must try to think more positively-look forward to something. no idea what it is. could you help me?
6 more days to go.
sean