blogging from school.

6 more days to go. yeah, it is THE MSTs but, i do not think i'll do well. i mean, after all that has happened, i'm not in the mood to study right now. i'm hardly listening durning classes. case in point, right now. the lecturer is muttering something about out personal-based-independent-learning thing and i'm blogging. bored? no. trying to reach out to someone? maybe.

i, most people in class thinks i'm smart. i'm not. everything you see me do is fake. its not true. its not what i am. and i hate myself for making people think that i am. i sometimes wonder if this is all true?

sorry.  i'm so sorry.

i just want to go home. sleep and forget everything. but i have to study, because it what i do. and i hate it. but its what i do and i must do it. this is screwed up.

must try to think more positively-look forward to something. no idea what it is. could you help me?



6 more days to go.

sean

society is screwed up.

l288

found this on my friend's blog...just browsing around I guess (I'm supposed to be studying)

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Riight..this freaks me out. I think I better get back to work...


lw88

Life's a roller coaster for most
Me, I'm trying to say
Say things that I feel
Just don't know how to say it

When your day is long and the night, the night is yours alone
When you're sure you've had enough of this life
Well, hang on, don't let yourself go
Everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes

Sometimes everything is wrong, now it's time to sing along
When your day is night alone, if you feel like letting go
(Hold on, hold on, hold on)
When you think you've had too much of this life, well, hang on

Everybody hurts, take comfort in your friends
Everybody hurts, don't throw your hand
Oh, no, don't throw your hand
If you feel like you're alone
No, no, no, you are not alone

If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are long
When you think you've had too much of this life to hang on

You don't know how lovely you are
Trying to tell you...
Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart

Oh, how I wish we could go back to the start...

Hope still lingers on
I drink myself of newfound pity
Sitting alone in the city
And I don't know why

So I walk up on high
And I step to the edge
To see my world below
And I laugh at myself
While the tears roll down
'Cause it's the world I know

l288

well. as my friends in jc are ending alevels, i'll be starting my mid sem tests. congratz gals/guys.

work load is as slack as ever, at least there are a few projects that i'm doing that can keep my poor mind off some other stuffs...






how do you describe my feelings?

l288

Tell me
What am I doing
Tell me
What am I feeling
Tell me
What is happening

As I lay in bed
As I walk alone
I ponder why
Why am I doing it?

______

Do I dare to think
Over so many things
I always wondered about
letting go forgetting everything
over many things already 18 and have acomplished nothing much
very always think of the same thing whenever I'm alone
everytime every single time
young I am not learn binary
octal languages are boring
unless the moon is very beautiful tonight like you
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