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http://l288.tumblr.com/

2009-09-23T18:13:00.000+08:00

i've currently using http://l288.tumblr.com/ to post pics and such as its directly tied to my twitter and FB.

l288

Rally

2009-08-17T12:45:00.000+08:00

Was at a rally last week. Got some really nice pics. Will post some up soon.

l288
-- Post From My iPhone

Time (Part 2)

2009-08-06T10:21:00.000+08:00

(Continued from here:http://unreadablefeelings.blogspot.com/2009/07/time.html)

Drama was so important to me. It was my motivation, the thing I looked forward to back then. It was my love. Then it ended. I left secondary school. Then there was that few months in between. I found a small role in a production at Zouk. I was so happy. I could again be there on stage, and be myself. Then that ended too. I lost all contact with the people there and my secondary school too.

Then I came to poly. First day of school, I was scared. Apprehensive. And strangely, excited. Strange faces, accents, language that over the last few years I became used to, to accept, to understand, to call my friends. I foolishly chose a course that I liked. About computers, about technology, about electronics. That, was the biggest mistake I ever did. Sure there are some mistakes that I made which may seem to you bigger than 'choosing' something I was interested in. Like not chasing that person. Like refusing to believe that I was able to actually like someone who I didn't know very well. Here in polytechnic, I've find that I'm regressing. Without an older mentor, without someone to look up to and say 'I wish I could do as well as him', I've let myself slide back into a state where I've no motivation to do anything else except to get by each day by doing the least possible of my responsibilities.

Its pathetic. Its poor. Thats me.

After I left secondary school, I could look back, and said: look I've got this award for doing this, and I did that for this award. But looking back at my 2 and half years here at poly, I cannot say the same. There's nothing I can look back to, and say proudly that I did that. What changed? I've no idea.

And so, as my dear father used to say, that I was digging a hole so deep that I couldn't get out of. And I don't think I can help myself anymore. Maybe I'll just give up even trying. I don't know how to stop, and to get back up.

These self reflective posts always seem so lonely...maybe I want to write some more, maybe I don't.

l288

The missing piece

2009-08-06T01:16:00.000+08:00

Right now, I have 2 stories in drafts. That's because one is the unfinished piece of the 2nd part of the post below; the other a post that I can't write more than a paragraph without getting tears in my eyes. I try to find the quiet places and time to write, but seems those moments are so fleeting, so...little now. On buses, waiting for classes to start.

Its so, so confusing.

l288

I tried to paint you a picture, the colors were all wrong

Black and white didn't fit you

And all along, you were shaded with patience, your strokes of everything that I need just to make it

Lord knows I'll fail you time and again,

But you and me we're alright

We won't say our goodbyes you know it's better that way

We won't break, we won't die

It's just a moment of change

All we are, all we are, is everything that's right

All we need, all we need, a lover's alibi

I walked a minute in your shoes, they never would've fit

I figured there's nothing to lose

I need to get some perspective on these words before I write them down

You're an island and my ship has run aground

Lord knows I'll fail you time and again,

But you and me we're alright

We won't say our goodbyes you know its better that way

We won't break, we won't die

It's just a moment of change

All we are, all we are, is everything that's right

All we need all we need, a lover's alibi

Every single day that I can breathe, you changed my philosophy

I'm never gonna let you pass me by

So don't say your goodbyes you know its better that way

We won't break, we won't die

It's just a moment of change

All we are, all we are, is everything that's right

All we need, all we need, a lover's alibi

Time (Part 1)

2009-07-31T02:01:00.000+08:00

Time.

Its like a river: ever flowing.

Never stopping.

And in the blink of an eye I'm nearing the end of my poly life. Looking back, I'll never say that going to polytechnic was a waste of time. I met people from all walks of life. I learnt how to deal with unexpected situations. I learnt so many things that I'll not forget for the rest of my life. I made friends. And every single memory along the way is treasured. No matter how much I bitch, moan, complain, I know that I won't truly have hated it here.

Its been close to 3 years since I left secondary school. Back then, I was excited. Excited to be starting in a new school, with totally new way of teaching, and a new people to meet. I painted a picture for myself: coming home at night, laptop and work in my back, typing busily on the way home, and participating in really fun activities. In reality, I accomplished neither. I found my course interesting at first. Easy too. It was like re-learning physics all over again - ohms law, V=IR, all different kinds of theorems, laws that still are applied over and over again in all my modules. But what I could do in secondary school that I couldn't now was to think. You see, in secondary school, I loved to participate in 'out-of-class' activities. To do more than homework, to go that one further mile, to participate in that one competition, to do help out in this upcoming activity that was being planned, to be part of everything that I could be in.

My CCA in secondary school did help alot. It made me me. Being part of acting, of drama, was me. It wasn't limited to boring old plays; it had dance, cool moves, blood, sweat, tears, bright lights, music, soul and passion. It was fun, exciting, and it was so sacred to be up THERE. Up on the stage, feeling the whole theater hang on every single word that comes out of your mouth, the audience at your control. The stage was the place that I felt free. The feeling of standing before so many people, a sea of faces looking at you, every eye watching every gesture you make, no matter how small. YOU commanded the huge stage spreading out to the front, back, left and right of you. It was your kingdom, you could do anything! It was...it was like magic. Funnily enough, being in front of so many people was somewhere that I felt free, somewhere that I could be myself, take off my everyday mask, without fear, without being judged for what I said, for what I wore, for being ME.

It is one of the few things in life that I truly have loved. I treasured every moment, every production, every play, every dance, and every step that I took on stage. From the 1st stages of auditioning, then numerous rehersals, shouting, getting scolded, forgetting lines, to rushing around backstage 5 minutes before the opening night excited, but without fear. No worrying about whether you would remember your lines, whether you had your make up put correctly, whether you had your props where you needed them, or whether your co actors could remember their lines because you trusted them; you just knew that they'll perform. Because you had gone through the depths of hell with them to get to where you are now - the many rehearsals, the special moments that you shared together, the different exercises that you did together, the pacing, the blocking, would all cumulate in one big night, that would be over in a blink of an eye. And when you look back you asked yourself: Did I really manage do that? And you'll know that you did pull it off.

TBC

l288

Colors

2009-07-27T22:51:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I got lost in the circus,

feeling like such a mess.

And now I'm down,

I'm just hanging on the corner.

I can't help but reminisce.

Cause when you're gone,

all the colors fade.

When you're gone,

no New Years Day parade.

You're gone,

colors seem to fade.

Your mama called, she said,

that you're downstairs crying.

Feeling like such a mess.

Ya, I hear ya,

in the background bawling.

What happened to your sweet summer time dress.

I know we all,

we all got our faults.

We get locked in our vaults,

and we stay..

When you're gone,

all the colors fade.

When you're gone,

no new years day parade.

You're gone,

colors seem to fade,

colors seem to fade.

Calling out....

2009-07-22T09:32:00.001+08:00

Maybe I'm longing in a way of love naive

Maybe I'm desperate for a reason to believe

There wasn't anywhere I thought that we would fall

I've seen perfection in a rainbow in the sky

I've seen a child who make the coldest run and cry

actually, this post is to test twitterfeed, see if my posts come out nicely on my twitter.

l288

Sidekick

2009-07-16T15:24:00.001+08:00

My friend just got a Sidekick LX 09. For those who hve no idea what is it here are some pics:

It's a phone that flips open. It's very cool. Reminded me why I used to keep buying new gadgets. And I think that I'm really going to start again.

The keyboard is a little weird though. Most probably becuase I haven't been using a phone with one for almost 2 years now. Still loving my original iPhone :)

Here's a shot from quiznos @ orchard central. It's really really good compared with subway in Singapore. They make like really amazing subs. Hot, toasted subs. And their cookies are really awesome. Please, if you have the time, try it.

Oh and here's a shot from Mad Dogs Cafe. It's pretty on the >$15 per person, and some of it's dishes is nice, with the exception of what is being shown above. It's called spaghetti with pesto and squid ink. It's as bad as it sounds.

And this post was really just for nothing. Kinda bored in lecture.

l288
-- Post From My iPhone

2009-06-13T10:46:00.000+08:00

Change

Everything you are

And everything you were

Your number has been called

Fights, battles have begun

Revenge will surely come

Your hard times are ahead

Best!

You've got to be the best

You've got to change the world

And you use this chance to be heard

Your time is now

Change

Everything you are

And everything you were

Your number has been called

Fights and battles have begun

Revenge will surely come

Your hard times are ahead

Best!

You've got to be the best

You've got to change the world

And you use this chance to be heard

Your time is now

Don't

Let yourself down

Don't let yourself go

Your last chance has arrived

Best!

You've got to be the best

You've got to change the world

And you use this chance to be heard

Your time is now

l288

Dinner...and a surprise!

2009-06-13T00:15:00.001+08:00

So I had dinner at Deals again...

The Australian tenderloin was aged 14 days. Gave it quite a nice taste...

Desert...

And some iced coffee!

And then we decided to head out into the night for some....

DURIANS!! (and facewash)

That's all! Got a meeting tomrorrow morning at the Dept of Agri Culture. Until tomorrow then, take care!

To those at home: Don't let the flu bug bite!

l288

-- Post From My iPhone

Road Trip!!

2009-06-10T22:39:00.000+08:00

So after a really hasty meeting this morning, I rushed back to the hotel to go on a road trip to view possible development sites with my boss, a senior engineer, and 2 really good friends of my boss. here are the pics!

its going to be a long post: my lunch, some kind of laksa

then a trip to brunei river to get the overview of the whole road trip.

amazing driving by Datin

more pictures of the Kampung Ayer (water kampung)

we passed singapore embassy on the way...

we climbed on to a spiral staircase to get a better view of the coastline...thats the friendly Datuk

this was apparently built for Queen Elizabeth when she visited Brunei

further down, there was this really long pier.

some mangrove along the shoreline, next to the pier

and the trash from Kampung Ayer gets washed up among the mangrove

stopped to get some really crispy and awesome roti prata. so good, that i had to eat before i could think of taking pics.

the shop where we had the roti prata.

we then went to visit the border to see the immigration checkpoint.

we then got a close up of the Kampung Ayer:

CAT!! :D

the awesome 3l car that got us around. SEE, IT ISN'T A BMW.

thats all for now, heading out into brunei bay tomorrow. :)

l288

Lunch

2009-06-08T19:40:00.000+08:00

Ok, so I had lunch today at this place called Deal. I'll let the picture do the talking.

Ok, so the place (strangely) was called Deal, and the glasses were even stranger: they all tilted.

Then the fillers came: handmade cheese sticks and bread(not pictured) and the dips were very very nice.

The appetizer: Pan seared scallops on top of a pile of beans surrounded by balsamic vinegar, olive oil and some kind of herbs

Then the mail course: Australian beef (can't remember the cut) and a very very delicious garlic sauce.

The desert: Crème brûlée, with rasberry sorbet. Damn.

As a result of this, I feel fat. Anyway, after that, it was plop back into the conference room at the Department of Agriculture for another negotiation. I'm now compiling the notes for the 2 meetings today. Whenever I can, I'll be updating through tweets, and this blog. So check both! http://tweeter.com/leader288

l288

Posting from DBS's Asia Treasure Lounge

2009-06-07T08:42:00.000+08:00

Wow. the service at this place is pretty amazing. food fare is pretty on par with the 1st class lounge over at SIA. Well, one thing must be said, that the number of iMacs here are certainly not few. I count three 20" iMacs (using one now). Oh well, lets hope this trip does turn out to be some kind of fun for me :) I'm in for 10 days for HARD work, and no internet. I'll be staying at the Sheraton Brunei. Hopefully the last 5 episodes of Torchwood is enough to take up my free time. Sorry guys, looks like the only shopping that i can actually do will be at the duty free (Vodka) on the way back. So until the 17th of June, cya.

l288

An entry

2009-06-01T18:21:00.001+08:00

Jun 1st, 2009. Hot, humid day. Have a meeting with xuanqi later borrow her FTT book. Hope of doesn't rain. I have no idea why I'm talking about rain- I suppose the weather is a good talking point. Talk talk talk. Am in school right now, hanging out with some vid club members, trying to find a seat in the ever crowded food court 5. Funny, although it seems there are less people, tables still hard to find. Oh well, waiting is part of life I guess. Hail Hitler and all that german nonsense.

l288

-- Post From My iPhone

An update

2009-05-25T12:43:00.001+08:00

5 days more and I have no idea what I want to do for my birthday. Anyone wants to go for lunch this saturday?

-l288

-- Post From My iPhone

A creation of a whole new universe, and the destruction of another

2009-05-18T00:36:00.001+08:00

It's really embarrassing that I've neglected my blog for like, almost a month, but life's boring as ever. hardly much changed. actually, I've found that most of my updates has been on twitter. and if you're curious of what I'm up to do take a look at my twitter page. Twitter Profile

well, school's started, and i think i'm more or less settling down into my new timetable. my parents are really really pressuring me to take my driving lessons. thing is, i'm not really too keen on doing it. fine, driving is cool, and i'll be able to move around more easily, but something is holding me back. maybe i'm lazy. hahaha.

time has passed really really fast. it's almost been 2 months since my granddad passed away. just a few days ago, we finally settled him into a niche at CCK Columbarium. its really lonely there, but I for one hope that he is happy. i still miss him. i do really want to write more, but i just can't do that right now.

i've been catching Star Trek on the big screen. to date, its the only single movie that I've watched repeatedly again and again. 3 time to be exact. tell, you it was amazing. I don't really have a firm grasp of the whole star trek timeline, so i'm not sure where the destruction of the planet stands in the Star Trek universe. Can anyone enlighten me? So far, it is a must watch.

In total contrast, i just caught Angels and Demons today. I wasn't really expecting anything but just to be sure, I prepped myself my re-reading Angels & Demons before heading down to the movie. Here's the summary:
Angels and Demons is a fast-paced roller coaster ride without the fun, definitely better than the Da Vinci Code, but the storyline was butchered totally in order to try and make it into a movie. Too often it wavers between implausible and just simply ridiculous, and was not adapted well enough for the big screen.

My birthday is in like 12 days time, and I'm putting up a sort of wish-list through my twitter/facebook account. Do take a look! :p

And thats about all folks. School's starting tomorrow and I best be in bed. Night.

l288

Night out

2009-04-20T01:00:00.000+08:00

Went out last night. Ended up at the Sanctuary Gardens outside Wisma Atria. Went mostly becuase we had nothing to do(finished getting our bags) and the band sounded well, great. Nice place. Highly recommended.

l288

-- Post From My iPhone

And..

2009-04-20T00:11:00.001+08:00

...its the start of school. Damn. New class, no idea what it'll be like. Zzzzz

Stupid SP.

l288

2009-04-10T22:54:00.000+08:00

I found these words rather meanful. Sit back, relax and listen.

l288

When you try your best but you don't succeed

When you get what you want but not what you need

When you feel so tired but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace

When you love someone but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

High up above or down below

When you're too in love to let it go

If you never try you'll never know

Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face

When you lose something you cannot replace

Tears stream down your face

And I...

Tears stream down your face

I promise you I have learned from my mistakes

Tears stream down your face

And I...

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

-'Fix You' Coldplay

...a bad day.

2009-04-05T19:27:00.000+08:00

It's been a really bad day for me today.for beaten up by my dad in the morning. And we're no longer talking. Nice.

Actually, fir the first time me many months I woke up today feeling good. Relaxed. Maybe even a little happy. Then it all turned to hell And now, even the 1 hour bike ride I just took to try and relaxdidn't even help at all.

I'm now heading down to the city to try and get away from everything. Anyone care to jon me?

l288

-- Post From My iPhone

Hard, Medium, Easy.

2009-04-04T18:57:00.002+08:00

Its hard passing everyday without him.
Can't I cry?
Please tell me.
I've given up looking for answers.
I've started running.
Refusing to face it, not trying to move on.

Going out, putting a mask,
Telling everyone I'm ok.
Its not easy
The hardest part is letting go

And the world just seems a little less brighter.
Without you around.
Who do I tell about my day?
Who do I look forward to meeting every week?
Where did you go?

There's so much silence now.
No phone calls at night to check on me.
No more dinners together.
No more car rides.
No more you.

I'll stand here for hours asking God why.
And all I have in return is silence.
Will we meet again?
I miss you.
I miss you so much.

I want to hear your voice again.
To see you smile.
To feel your hug.
To laugh with you.
My world had holes.
And now its just so much more empty.

I'm finally crying.
Alone.

Sean

'And honestly, I have been begging for answers

That you and only you can give to me

A voice crying loud

I've been crying for days now

And as I start to run, I stop to breathe

(And I was nearly scared to death)

And I was nearly scared to death

(Why you left in paragraphs)

Why you left in paragraphs

(The words were nearly over us)

The words were nearly over us

You stop and turn and grab your bags

And I'll be here by the ocean

Just waiting for proof that there's sunsets and silhouette dreams

All my sand castles fall like the ashes of cigarettes

And every waves drags me to sea

I could stand here for hours

Just to ask God the question, "Is everyone here make-believe?"

With a tear in His voice, He said, "Son, that's the question."

Does this deafening silence mean nothing to no one but me?

As hours move to minutes

And minutes take longer to break

I will be desperately awaiting

But my tongue won't fall apart

And we've been sitting here for hours

All alone and in the dark

So let me think of to word it

Is it too soon to say 'perfect'?

If I could find another thirty minutes somewhere

I'm sure everything would find me

All that's left is just to sing

And I'll be here by the ocean

Just waiting for proof that there's sunsets and silhouette dreams

All my sand castles fall like the ashes of cigarettes

And every waves drags me to sea

I could stand here for hours

Just to ask God the question, "Is everyone here make-believe?"

With a tear in His voice, He said, "Son, that's the question."

Does this deafening silence mean nothing to no one but me?

I may never sail Virginia again

And as this current moves slow for me

This much you must know of me again

And I'll have you know I'm scared to death

Tell me once again

That you'll love me to the death

And should I die, you swear that you will come for me

As I fade away, you reach out your hand

(And please don't let me go)

And please don't let me go

(And please don't let me go)

And please don't let me go

And I'll be here by the ocean

Just waiting for proof that there's sunsets and silhouette dreams

All my sand castles fall like the ashes of cigarettes

And every waves drags me to sea

I could stand here for hours

Just to ask God the question, "Is everyone here make-believe?"

With a tear in His voice, He said, "Son, that's the question."

Does this deafening silence mean nothing to no one but me?'

- "I'll Be The Wings That Keep Your Heart In The Clouds", Mayday Parade

RIP

2009-03-24T00:36:00.000+08:00

My grandfather died on the 23rd March 2009 (23/3/09) aged 85 years, a Christian. He is a great man. Rest In Peace, 公公。He was born 3rd September 1923 (3/9/23).

=) Cry, for not all tears are evil. His wake will be held from the 24th -25th. Funeral on the 26th.

l288

-- Post From My iPhone

Just an update.

2009-03-23T11:21:00.000+08:00

Ok. Most of you already know why/what's happenning, but for those who don't, here's the sitrep: my granddad's very sick. I'm not going to say dying, becuase I still believe in miracles. It's been 5 days since he's been discharged from hospital, he isn't getting amy better. But for the count, the hospital doctor did say last last Sunday that he only had a few more days to live, but look at him, he's still alive now.

My granddad is strong. He's a fighter. And when be was younger, he kept my whole family together. Just reading his many get well cards give me a grasp, however small, of what he did before I was born. And the amount of visitors he has been getting is endless. The number of people his life has changed. From what I can gather, he's basically the glue that kept my family together. He was there when anyone needed help. And if I could only be a fraction of what he is I would be sastified. In the last 5 days I've heard stories of a caring, noble grandfather, who stood up for his siblings, nieces, nephews in many ways. And of how he stood up for his rights after the Japanese Occupation.

My grandfather has been there from me since I was born. He gave up his pastime of smoking for his grandchildren. And as many smokers know, giving up smoking after smoking for over 30 years is not easy. But he did it. He was there to fetch my brothers and I from school and to tuition. He calls up every night just to check on my family: if we had dinner, if we had transport to or from school the next day, and would worry about me or my brothers when either one went overseas. He has made me the person that I am. And I will always treasure him

-- Post From My iPhone

Going away

2009-03-13T09:45:00.001+08:00

I'm going away for awhile. Till sunday at least. Going to leave everything behind - stress, worries, problems and just enjoy myself. =)

l288

'Two ravens in the old oak tree
And one for you and one for me
And bluebells in the late Febuary
I see signs now all the time'
-'Signs', Bloc Party

2009-03-07T11:44:00.001+08:00

really don't know what to do.

ever had..

2009-03-05T00:21:00.004+08:00

'

ever had a feeling, where its like you have a weight on you? it comes and goes, always. i wonder how i can fix it.

lights will guide you home

and ignite your bones

high up above or down below

when you're too in love to let it go

if you never try you'll never know

just what you're worth'

-Coldplay 'Fix You'

l288

dazed
ostensibly
i wonder if,
you?

losing

one's

vague sense of

eccentricity ever affects

always be

2009-03-02T21:08:00.002+08:00

Waiting for life to start. Who..oops Battlestar Galactica just arrvied. another time then,

I'm alone in this

I'm as I've always been

Right behind what's happening

She's like she'll always be

A little far for me to reach

l288

lost. definitely.

2009-03-02T12:02:00.000+08:00

Its monday. I really need to DO something. Don't want to rot at home.

'Just because I'm hurting
Doesn't mean I'm hurt
Doesn't mean I didn't get
What I deserved
No better and no worse

I just got lost
Every river that I tried to cross
Every door I ever tried was locked
Ohhh and I'm...
Just waiting 'til the shine wears off'
- Coldplay 'Lost'

l288

iphone.

2009-03-01T15:47:00.000+08:00

I've added iPhone support to my blog. So now, if you browse the site with iPod touch/iPhone, you'll be directed to the mobile blog :p

Although i still think the colors suck.

l288

Blog changes

2009-03-01T09:49:00.000+08:00

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l288

Its the holidays.

2009-02-28T23:55:00.001+08:00

I went swimming today morning. The last time I tried, it was before my exams started. So today was a little tiring, back breaking, and muscle aching. I swear, I was sure my muscles had atrophied. Anyway, I timed myself for a lap and was surprised that I still had the same time as I did many years back: 48 seconds. As many swimmers will know, thats pretty slow.

After that, I got a call that Granddad got admitted back into hospital today. =( He was running a slight fever that eventually broke, but the doctor said to keep him there as he had a low white blood cell count. So he's going to be there until his count returns to normal. So after a hurried lunch with Leo, KJ and Cliff, I left them with their Sins (of the Solar Empire) and went down to SGH. In the bus, well, I kinda dozed off. The two weeks of exams and the morning's swimming had worn me out. And no surprise, I missed Outram bus stop, woke up right after the bus moved off. And I found myself in Chinatown.

Ah, Chinatown. Looking about, I sat in the bus till I saw Chinatown MRT station, which I then took back to Outram, then walked to Ward 48. Far. And I found out that my aunty (dad's sister) had bought a wheelchair(she kept referring to it as a 'transporter') for my Grandfather. Of course, we didn't let him know, or he'll freak out. You wouldn't like being reminded you're weak right?

That aside, I found my Granddad pretty well, just slightly discomforted that he had to spend the night in the hospital with no confirmed discharge date. I insisted in staying there till the night, but he refused, asking my aunty to take me home. I can't say no to him.

So here I am, blogging because well, I don't really have much to do. Chatting on MSN with my dear friend(s) does help pass the time. Thanks. =)

Its the holidays.

And I find myself with quite some time on my hands. Unfortunately, that means that I'll have time. Time to look about, time to think about friends who you want to be more than friends, time to laze around, time to decide. I don't want to. I want to enjoy life as it is, one job, work, one after another, no stopping to think. Spontaneous decisions. I don't want to pause, to look behind actions and words, to seek out meanings that are not there. But somehow I can't. Its natural to be curious. Its how I am. But I try my best not to.

Change...

l288

'In a way, I need a change

From this burnout scene

Another time, another town

Another everything

But it's always back to you'

-lyrics from O.A.R. "Shattered"

Dreams.

2009-02-24T08:00:00.001+08:00

When you're dreaming with a broken heart, the waking up is the hardest part.

You roll outta bed and down on your knees, and for the moment, you can hardly breathe

Was she really there? Standing next to me?

And you look around, bleary eyed.

No she's not.

l288

Blogging

2009-02-18T16:43:00.001+08:00

Just finished my 1st exam paper and I have 3 more to go. But that's not the reason of this post. I've been usin by free time lately thinking and exploring options of using my time I'm going to have in my upcoming holidays. One thing that I've hit on is, of course, blogging. Blogging to attract a small base of readers for my blog. It'll be a challenge that I can take up over the upcoming holidays. I've making up a list of what to do. Of course, finding a suitable host is one of my biggest challenges. If you have any to recommend, please leave some comments below. Thanks!

l288

-- Post From My iPhone

Work work!

2009-02-08T12:11:00.010+08:00

Exams are in a few days time, and only now I'm starting trying to study. Pathetic isn't it? Anyway, I've made a few changes to my blog:

1) twitter updates - these are micro-blog posts, taken from twitter, real time. simply put, these are quick, frequent answers to one simple question: what am i doing? sign up at twitter.com !

2) music from blip.fm - my own playlist press play to listen to full songs, most of them stream pretty fast. i removed last.fm because it doesn't allow you full control over songs eg pause, rewind, etc. sign up at blip.fm !

3) blog. i've added links for easier browsing through my archives. blog titles are also clickable for links. i think i'm going to be blogging on more subjects other than me...mainly because i'm pretty bored, and i'm boring, but still, i think it'll help my english skills that are slowly rapidly deteriorating in polytechnic.

thats all for now, i best concentrate on my exams. good luck all.

l288

Updates

2009-02-08T01:00:00.003+08:00

Ok, I'm updating my blogskin as well as a few other things. So far, only my twitter updates doesn't seem to work. Also you'll now be able to find my blog on google. :p

Plan to write on a few topics soon. Need everything to be shipshape.

l288

2009-02-06T11:25:00.001+08:00

I haven't been posting lately, well, because there's not really much to blog about. It's just very cold. They huddle together, close to the fire. And me? I'm just wandering out in cold.

l288

-- Post From My iPhone

I'm very worried.

2009-02-02T15:57:00.002+08:00

About my upcoming exams :(

l288

-- Post From My iPhone

Where is the Love?

2009-01-30T10:32:00.002+08:00

I wonder if I'll ever be able to love.

l288

Visitng our past

2009-01-29T12:08:00.002+08:00

Pokémon!!!

l288

-- Post From My iPhone

Facebook

2009-01-29T08:32:00.001+08:00

Facebook is rapidly gaining much of my friends' attention. After spending a fruitless 1 week playing and exploring the extent of facebook's (pathetic) games, I conclude that it was wasted. Let's take the game my class is currently all talking/playing about: Mafia Wars. Mafia Wars is like a turn base game-you do jobs and fight other mafia for experience points to level up. Although there are a large variety of jobs to do, you need to meet certain pre-requsites like the amoun of gang members you have etc. After that, out just click click and click. Doing that for every level(each level requires more exp points) and it gets very very boring and repetive.

All in all most games in Facebook. But don't hesitate to invite me for any intellectual games.

l288

-A Post From My iPhone

Going out

2009-01-28T14:12:00.001+08:00

I love hanging out with my friends. It's really fun. Like last night. Just please plan earlier!

l288

-- Post From My iPhone

Chinese New Year has gone to the dogs.

2009-01-26T09:58:00.000+08:00

And it just has.

l288

-- Post From My iPhone

Talking with myself

2009-01-19T15:26:00.001+08:00

"Hey, how are you?"
"Fine, you? "
"Doing well. Are you free later?"
"Hmm...yes I am."
"Dinner?"
"Sure, why not"

TBC

-- Post From My iPhone

Truth

2009-01-19T09:44:00.001+08:00

Always it seems, that the truth is found behind your back. And it's never said straight to your face. Don't you hate the people "friend" who talks behind your back, and you only find out from your true friends? It's detestable.

l288
P.S. I'll blog abt where I've been a little later. I've been pretty busy :p

-- Post From My iPhone

Time keep moving

2009-01-15T09:23:00.001+08:00

Everyone seems to be moving with time - forward. And I wish I could turn back time, 2 years back and follow my heart.

l288

-- Post From My iPhone

sleep

2009-01-12T00:31:00.000+08:00

I really need to start sleeping earlier. >.<

>> I need my shuteye!

l288

Have you ever wondered...

2009-01-12T00:28:00.000+08:00

... what happens to a man
when he spills his heart on a page
and he watches words flow away
then his feelings lie on the page alone,
there waiting for someone who cares to read them
to open their eyes to see them
to see if they can make his thoughts their own
to find out that maybe your life's not perfect,
maybe it's not worth what he gives away

... what happens to a soul

when it's trapped inside his emotions

and all of these words he's spoken

bind him to the life he's left behind.

And every new step he takes

he knows that he might not make it

to all of these dreams that he has yet to find.

things said. actions speaks. tension grows.

In Bruges

2009-01-08T00:07:00.001+08:00

Summary: Bruges, the most well-preserved medieval city in the whole of Belgium, is a welcoming destination for travellers from all over the world. But for hit men Ray and Ken, it could be their final destination; a difficult job has resulted in the pair being ordered right before Christmas by their London boss Harry to go and cool their heels in the storybook Flemish city for a couple of weeks. Very much out of place amidst the gothic architecture, canals, and cobbled streets, the two hit men fill their days living the lives of tourists. Ray, still haunted by the bloodshed in London, hates the place, while Ken, even as he keeps a fatherly eye on Ray's often profanely funny exploits, finds his mind and soul being expanded by the beauty and serenity of the city. But the longer they stay waiting for Harry's call, the more surreal their experience becomes, as they find themselves in weird encounters with locals, tourists, violent medieval art, a dwarf American actor shooting a European art film, Dutch prostitutes, and a potential romance for Ray in the form of Chloë, who may have some dark secrets of her own. And when the call from Harry does finally come, Ken and Ray's vacation becomes a life-and-death struggle of darkly comic proportions and surprisingly emotional consequences

My Thoughts:

In Bruges is a good film. Go see it. At the very least, it'll make you want to visit Bruges. A pity it wasn't release in Singapore.

l288

4 lessons I just learnt

2009-01-07T00:19:00.001+08:00

1) Never leave things to the last minute. Especially presents.

2) If you have an idea about wrapping a present, try it out 1st. Never assume that it works.

3) Never assume that your school's Popular has everything you need for wrapping a present.

4) Gin & Tonic is meant to be drunk in small sips, larger than when drinking wine, but smaller than shots.

That's all folks. Safe voyage to everyone who's going on a holiday.

l288

-- Post From My iPhone

Back in school

2009-01-06T11:09:00.001+08:00

I'm back in school. Sigh. Wish it was more intersting.

-- Post From My iPhone

Its arrived.

2009-01-03T00:25:00.000+08:00

:D
It just sounds so good. The perfect friend for my iPhone.

Burning in the drivers now: there won't be much change, but all the same, a little burn in never hurts anyone!

I'll post pics and my thoughts about it after I've tested it for a day.

l288

2009-01-02T21:39:00.000+08:00

I promise you

I'm always there

When your heart is filled with sorrow

And despair

And I'll carry you

When you need a friend

You'll find my footprints in the sand

A New's Years Gift

2009-01-01T22:28:00.001+08:00

Ordered it on the 31st, I'm hoping it'll arrive tomorrow :)

As a new year consolation I guess :p

l288

Doubt

2009-01-01T22:17:00.000+08:00

Its finally coming out! I think this is the most anticipated movie for me this January.

Synopsis:

John Patrick Shanley brings his Pulitzer Prize and Tony Award winning play to the screen as a gripping story about the quest for truth, the forces of change, and the devastating consequences of blind justice in an age defined by moral conviction.

Academy Award winning screenwriter John Patrick Shanley (Moonstruck) adapted his own play for the screen and directs DOUBT, starring Meryl Streep, Philip Seymour Hoffman, Amy Adams and Viola Davis. The film is produced by Scott Rudin and Mark Roybal, with Celia Costas as executive producer.

l288

It's new year's eve

2008-12-31T02:35:00.000+08:00

They ask, why am i doing anything. I say, it doesn't matter. They say, it does. I reply, no.

But why do I feel like I might be lying?

Twilight The Score

2008-12-31T01:37:00.002+08:00

This score does not disappoint. If you're a fan of the film, then the score is a wonderful way of taking the movie with you, so to speak. From the opening scenes ("How I Would Die") to the breathtaking conclusion ("Edward at her Bed"), this score covers the various moods, emotions, suspense and romance of the film. To truly get the full musical experience of the film, you really would want to get this and the original soundtrack because these two go hand-in-hand.

Amidst all the darkness is a slightly dissonant piano motif representing the love of Bella Swan and Edward Cullen. This piano motif can be heard numerous times throughout the score, though the most obvious (and beautiful) usage is in the track entitled Bella’s Lullaby, which would appear to be the gem of this entire album. In the film and novel, the lullaby is supposedly written and played for Bella by her vampire lover. Its dark, tormented sound, is certainly quite gorgeous and moving, and is the highlight of the score as presented here.

But I seem to detect a hint of loneliness in there. Could me be just me?

l288

Phase, phasorwhat?

2008-12-29T19:56:00.000+08:00

Ahhhhhh!!!

Somebody save me!

l288

-- Post From My iPhone

Teaching is useless

2008-12-29T10:24:00.001+08:00

As if I don't know what an electric shock is.

l288

-- Post From My iPhone in school.

urgh

2008-12-28T21:23:00.001+08:00

Sick. Just came back from the doctor. Drink lots of water and I should be ok. Gtg: water parade time!

l288

2008-12-28T18:54:00.001+08:00

I'll let the pics do the talking :P

small, and it doesn't rattle

....hmm..looks kinda familiar....

8GB of awesomeness!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

l288

Curry Fish. Yummm...

2008-12-27T20:08:00.001+08:00

Eating curry fish now. Posting thanks to Malaysia's un-intellectual rights to wifi. Wherever there are homes, there is always open networks. Don't you love technology incompetent people?

l288

-- Post From My iPhone

Boxing Day

2008-12-26T13:35:00.001+08:00

I had such a weird dream last night. As nice as it might be, it was very very weird. Must be all the western tv shows getting to my head I guess.

The thing I like about western tv shows that it shows me how open we can be. Truth is, in Singapore, you'd find only one in a thousand that is as open as Eurasians are. And I'm pretty lucky to know a few.

4 days to new year, and my diary is as blank as ever.

l288

-- Post From My iPhone

Christmas in Malaysia, ok. Chinese? Hell no.

2008-12-24T23:25:00.001+08:00

Ah shit. Tomorrow is going to e the worst Christmas ever. A christian service held in Chinese >.<

Somebody save me!!!

l288

-- Post From My iPhone

Flightless Bird, American Mouth

2008-12-24T20:14:00.007+08:00

I was a quick wet boy

Diving too deep for coins

All of your street light eyes

Wide on my plastic toys

Then when the cops closed the fair

I cut my long baby hair

Stole me a dog-eared map

And called for you everywhere

Have I found you?

Flightless bird

Jealous, weeping

Or lost you?

American mouth

Big pill looming

Now I'm a fat house cat

Nursing my sore blunt tongue

Watching the warm poison rats

Curl through the wide fence cracks

Kissing on magazine photos

Those fishing lures thrown in the cold and clean

Blood of Christ mountain stream

Have I found you?

Flightless bird

Grounded, bleeding

Or lost you?

American mouth

Big pill, stuck going down

Amazing song.

Flightless Bird, American Mouth - Iron & Wine

I wish I could stop thinking of you. But I can't. How do I open up?

l288

From Malaysia, with love.

2008-12-23T23:17:00.001+08:00

Hey there everyone in the sunny island of Singapore: Merry Christmas! I'm stuck with my parents. We're heading up to Kota Bahru tomorrow-7 hours of driving. Blogging from Old Taste, Taipan, Subang Jaya.

l288
-- Post From My iPhone

Yes! No! Yes! Yes!

2008-12-23T12:27:00.003+08:00

Yes Man

This movie is Jim Carrey's first full-blown, comedy-movie that he has done in 3 years. And he has not lost his magic. The movie is enjoyable enough for what it is and nothing more: a comedy. There are flat performances in the film, false situations and bad lines, but the laughs are there and the message about personal transformation is timeless. Nice film: go in huge groups and fill the theater. Or with really good friends (I did).

Thanks alot for the company. :)

l288

Twilight

2008-12-23T12:17:00.003+08:00

I'm afraid, after thinking and re-watching the movie twilight, I take back everything I've said about the movie; for those who forgot, I said that it was pretty bad.

I know that I'm not the 'target audience' (teenage girls) , and I'm almost ashamed to admit it, but I realized I liked it. The special effects are still laughable, but the story is emotionally gripping and true. The soundtrack is really nice and compliments the movie very well. The screenwriter does a decent job adapting the first book in Meyer's series, and despite a tendency toward cheesy effects, the director keeps things moving swiftly. I have to say, it's disappointing when a big-screen romance can't match up to the one in your imagination, created by the book. But at least the story surrounding this movie remains generally unshaken.

Watch it if you can. And bring a loved one along, if you have one.

l288

Christmas and Me are Through

2008-12-22T10:18:00.002+08:00

The latest episode of Chuck, “Chuck versus Santa Claus”, included a really amazing song at the end that perfectly captured the poignancy of the ending of the episode- something that caught my eye ear.

After I watched it, I could little info about the song. Thankfully, now there is information all over the place. The song is “Christmas and Me Are Through” by Your Vegas. Lovely. Unfortunately, it’s not on their debut album. After an hour of searching, I finally found it on thesixtyone.com (click to listen to it!) , where you can either listen to it streaming on the site or you can download it. It seems that the band themselves are OK with the MP3 being available for free, since it isn’t available on iTunes or on an actual album. I think that’s really cool.

Digging a little deeper I found that Your Vegas is a alternative/rock band. Interestingly, alternative/rock music makes up almost half of my current library. So obtained the band's debut album: A Town and Two Cities. The music is amazing. Its like a wonderful composition of ambience and sound. They're similar with coldplay, but unlike coldplay, the lead singer is always the main focus of the music.

Somehow, the music seems to describe this year's christmas accurately.

UPDATE: Found the player!

Listen: on thesixtyone.com (autoplay)
on facebook (autoplay)

Lyrics:
Laugh a little louder
Sing a little prouder
See you in the Rose and Crown
We’ll raise a glass to this old town
Home is where the heart is
The end is where the start is
Have a happy holiday
Remember, boy, to smile when you frown
Out by the old church
I can hear them sing
Long live the king

Oh, Santa Claus, Santa Claus
There’s no Christmas here anymore
Put the bells away
Burn the sleigh
Throw the presents out of my door
‘Cos she’s gone, gone
Everything they said was true
Christmas and me are through

Why’d you go and leave me
I guess you didn’t need me
Funny when you did it hey
All alone on Christmas Day
Wonder where the time goes
Dressing in the same clothes
Funny how the turkey tastes
With lunches from the microwave cold
Down by the old school
I can hear them sing
Love killed the king

Santa Claus, Santa Claus
There’s no Christmas here anymore
Put the bells away
Burn the sleigh
Throw the presents out of my door
‘Cos she’s gone, gone
Everything they said was true
Christmas and me are through
Christmas and me are through
Christmas and me are through

Santa Claus, Santa Claus
There’s no Christmas here anymore
Put the bells away
Burn the sleigh
Throw the presents out of my door
‘Cos she’s gone, gone
Everything they said was true
Christmas and meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee are through

I've been listening to it on repeat of times now. Play count is at 15.

l288

2008-12-17T20:54:00.001+08:00

I've got to get away from it all. And watching romance films is not helping either.

l288
-- Post From My iPhone

2008-12-16T10:10:00.000+08:00

i sometime wish that i could blog more. reality is, i live a relatively uninteresting life. zzz...

l288

2008-12-15T22:50:00.000+08:00

I'm looking for someone. or for a way out. can anyone help?

Granddad was admitted to hospital today. He's starting his treatment tomorrow.

l288

Holidays at last...

2008-12-12T20:11:00.001+08:00

No more school! Yes yes yes yes yes yes yes.....I'm looking forward to the holidays and spending more time with graddad and friends.

I wonder, will it last?

l288

-- Post From My iPhone

A look into life.

2008-12-11T18:19:00.001+08:00

My granddad has cancer. It not really surprising, considering most of his brothers or sister(my uncles and aunty) who are dead, died from cancer. It seems that cancer have a certain soft spot for my family.

I love him so much. I really do. He's been there forever, and the fact that it might just end has shaken me. It's making me look at everything so differently. It's making me scared.

l288

-- Post From My iPhone

Sick

2008-12-10T08:55:00.001+08:00

Stomach's acting up. I think it's something I ate yesterday.

l288

-- Post From My iPhone

updates

2008-12-08T23:15:00.001+08:00

was at cliff's house for most of today and yesterday.

yesterday: left 4 dead is an interesting and challenging run-away-from-zombie game and a great multiplayer co-op for gatherings. spent most of it shouting/screaming for help. didn't help that *ahem*'s 505 watts 5.1 speaker Z-5500 surround sound was turned all the way on -.-

poker today: i WON! omg. finally after like a dry spell since my first time i finally won. not much though. $26 :p
no one to spend it with
christmas is coming...but it's still pretty lonely...it seems that i'm, going to be out of country for christmas in malaysia AGAIN. gift exchange anyone? :/

i need to get over it-no doubt. the question is how?

...

2008-12-07T02:37:00.000+08:00

Holidays? I don't think so.

-- Post From My iPhone

some thoughts

2008-11-24T11:21:00.000+08:00

blogging from school.

6 more days to go. yeah, it is THE MSTs but, i do not think i'll do well. i mean, after all that has happened, i'm not in the mood to study right now. i'm hardly listening durning classes. case in point, right now. the lecturer is muttering something about out personal-based-independent-learning thing and i'm blogging. bored? no. trying to reach out to someone? maybe.

i, most people in class thinks i'm smart. i'm not. everything you see me do is fake. its not true. its not what i am. and i hate myself for making people think that i am. i sometimes wonder if this is all true?

sorry. i'm so sorry.

i just want to go home. sleep and forget everything. but i have to study, because it what i do. and i hate it. but its what i do and i must do it. this is screwed up.

must try to think more positively-look forward to something. no idea what it is. could you help me?

6 more days to go.

sean

2008-11-20T01:38:00.001+08:00

society is screwed up.

l288

2008-11-19T23:53:00.000+08:00

found this on my friend's blog...just browsing around I guess (I'm supposed to be studying)

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Riight..this freaks me out. I think I better get back to work...

lw88

2008-11-17T00:10:00.000+08:00

Life's a roller coaster for most
Me, I'm trying to say
Say things that I feel
Just don't know how to say it

When your day is long and the night, the night is yours alone
When you're sure you've had enough of this life
Well, hang on, don't let yourself go
Everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes

Sometimes everything is wrong, now it's time to sing along
When your day is night alone, if you feel like letting go
(Hold on, hold on, hold on)
When you think you've had too much of this life, well, hang on

Everybody hurts, take comfort in your friends
Everybody hurts, don't throw your hand
Oh, no, don't throw your hand
If you feel like you're alone
No, no, no, you are not alone

If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are long
When you think you've had too much of this life to hang on

You don't know how lovely you are
Trying to tell you...
Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart

Oh, how I wish we could go back to the start...

Hope still lingers on
I drink myself of newfound pity
Sitting alone in the city
And I don't know why

So I walk up on high
And I step to the edge
To see my world below
And I laugh at myself
While the tears roll down
'Cause it's the world I know

l288

last few weeks

2008-11-15T11:16:00.001+08:00

well. as my friends in jc are ending alevels, i'll be starting my mid sem tests. congratz gals/guys.

work load is as slack as ever, at least there are a few projects that i'm doing that can keep my poor mind off some other stuffs...

how do you describe my feelings?

l288

Thoughts

2008-11-01T20:43:00.001+08:00

Tell me
What am I doing
Tell me
What am I feeling
Tell me
What is happening

As I lay in bed
As I walk alone
I ponder why
Why am I doing it?

______

Do I dare to think
Over so many things
I always wondered about
letting go forgetting everything
over many things already 18 and have acomplished nothing much
very always think of the same thing whenever I'm alone
everytime every single time
young I am not learn binary
octal languages are boring
unless the moon is very beautiful tonight like you
o n
r o
t

feeling what words can't describe

2008-10-27T02:03:00.000+08:00

...like being strangers.

...like watching a movie alone.

...like wondering "what if"s.

...like being cast in the ocean.

...like tears.

...like hugging.

...like not knowing what to do.

l288

2008-10-23T14:47:00.003+08:00

its been awhile.

We watch the season
Pull up its own stakes
And catch the last weekend
Of the last week
Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced
Another sun soaked season fades away

You have stolen my heart
You have stolen my heart

Invitation only
Grand Farewells
Crush the best one
Of the best ones
Clear liquor and cloudy eyed
Too early to say goodnight

You have stolen my heart
You have stolen my heart

And from the ball room floor
We are in celebration
One good stretch before our hibernation
Our dreams assured and we all
Will sleep well
Sleep Well

Sleep Well
Sleep Well
Sleep Well

you have stolen
you have stolen
you have stolen my heart

Watch you spin around
In your highest heels
You are the best one
Of the best ones
We
All
Look
Like
We
Feel

l288

2008-10-23T14:47:00.001+08:00

So far..

2008-10-11T11:54:00.005+08:00

i've been camping out over at leonard's house for the last 3 days with kj. mainly because we're all trying to install windows xp and company of heros on our macs, and its been a pretty long time since any of us touched it. as usual, xp behaved like xp, and we spent well over 2 days trying to make it work. at least now its working.

i just wanna go out. weieteh hdedr.

school is starting in 2 days time. i'm cleaning up my room, but there's so many things i want to keep, i end up rearranging my room instead of throwing things away.

i wish i could say that i was truly looking forward to it, but i can't. don't know why.

l288

...

2008-10-04T01:41:00.000+08:00

so many questions, so little answers.

l288

I'm back

2008-10-03T01:28:00.000+08:00

..from chalet. and what we did was rather interestingly amazing. we rented bikes from changi at 9pm thursday night, cycled using the park connector network (pcn) all the way down to east coast park, then to fort road, kallang, nicholl highway, F1 pitstop track, esplanade, lau pa sat, had some refreshment, and then cycled all the way back by 8am friday morning. my friend reckons that we did 56km (google maps), but i think i was about 40 or so....but but but, this is the 1st time that i've ever stayed up sooo long! amazing.

now. back to sleep.

l288

Chalet II

2008-10-02T16:59:00.001+08:00

ok, i've shifted to the sliding door. its soo much better here...i've added google adsense to the blog, the links are on the right. if could so kindly click on it so that i can earn a little $$...thanks!

l288

Chalet

2008-10-02T16:40:00.000+08:00

BOOORRING...and somehow the chalet room is a deadzone for 3G connection...that means I'm blogging via GPRS using my mac -.-

arggh..internet is soooo slow...i need to find a better spot in the room...

l288

Away

2008-10-01T00:26:00.001+08:00

I'm out of money. And i have my class' chalet tday. i'm.so.broke.

l288

Now I know what speed is.

2008-09-29T08:22:00.007+08:00

I attended F1 in the end. It was ironic really - I tried getting work there, but ended up being there as part of the crowd. The seat I got was in rather lucky position, it was right at the starting line, opposite the McLaren pit stop. Took a lot of pics.

Hmm..he reminds me of someone..Austin Powers!

Some international band, no idea who they were

will post more later..once i sort out the pics that is.

all in all, F1 was quite an event. the speed and the sound of the cars were just amazing. 20 V8 engines revving at the same time was like :o

l288

it makes things all the more exciting. but not enjoying.

2008-09-27T01:56:00.000+08:00

competition is always a constant when you're dealing with others. it really funny, because when i started this post i knew i had to write something. but just don't have nothing to write.

of course, moaning about how next week is so full and that i try to keep sleeping early, and end up sleeping at 3 am everyday doesn't really help until i do something about it. my posts are always so short these days. it's not because that i don't have time. its just that sitting here in front of the keyboard leaves me with this feeling that i just try my best to forget about.

of course, its not possible that i keep running away from it. but i try. everything i do is just a temporary distraction away from the reality, from the missing piece. is it out necessity? is it monkey see monkey do? is it real?

people talk about relationships like it is worth only that much. but i don't. most of my classmates in polytechnic has already been through a few. but not me. i know it is a long shot, a one in a billionth chance that the first is THE one, but i am holding out for the fact that it might come true. problem is, i don't know how i will know.

my LTC group is pretty well bonded with each other. of course, the 4 days together on pulau sibu did work magic. a week back or so, we had a barbecue together - the sort of get-together after the camp. and after having our fun cooking, and eating, we found ourselves talking about who would we prefer dating: a person from a single sex school, or mixed. unusual topic for an 'after meal' talk, it was an interesting one. it got me thinking, and truth to be told, a few years before i would have answered 'single sex' without hesitation; but now, i couldn't come up with a answer.

and i still wonder why.

i feel like i am watching everything from space

and in a minute i'll hear my name and wake up

please just see it in my eyes

so beautiful, so clear

reach out...and take it

cos i'm so tired of all this fear

l288

Kayaking

2008-09-25T00:50:00.000+08:00

i'm tan.

spent over 6 hours in the sea off west coast kayaking. that plus the LTC = tan. went down to poly marina with my classmates and i...kinda enjoyed it. hope that we can do it again next week or so...

the new word: feth. its feth-ing emo, but i guess i'll have to endure. at least till november that is.

l288

happy

2008-09-22T19:15:00.000+08:00

i'm fine.

Sleep

2008-09-18T02:10:00.001+08:00

I can't sleep. Something is bothering me. Is it me? Or just the world aound me?

Do you hear me? I'm talking to you

Across the water, across the deep blue ocean

Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying

Do you ever think when you're all alone

All that we could be, where this thing could go?

Am I crazy or fallin' in love? Is it real or just another crush?

I'm starting a project now that, if successful, will be the 1st company I'll have a hand in starting. Before turning 20, that is. We're planning to keep this low key...until it gets underway :)

All I can say is that my life is pretty plain

I like watchin' the puddles gather rain

And all I can do is just pour some tea for two

And speak my point of view

But it's not sane, it's not sane

I just want someone to say to me,

I'll always be there when you wake,

Ya know I'd like to keep my cheeks dry today, hey

So stay with me and I'll have it made

l288

Be who you are. Feel it.

2008-09-12T01:54:00.001+08:00

I wondered through fiction to look for the truth
Buried beneath all the lies
And I stood at a distance
To feel who you are
Hiding myself in your eyes

And hold on before it's too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

And the risk that might break you
Is the one that would save
A life you dont live is still lost
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real til it's gone

And hold on before its too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are

It's all that we need in our lives

So live like you mean it
Love til you feel it
It's all that we need in our lives
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real til it's gone

Hold on before its too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

Hold on before its too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

It's all that we need in our lives
It's all that I need in my life

CAMP

2008-09-06T08:53:00.001+08:00

I've come back from Pulau Sibu. The camp there was one of the better ones I've had in a time. And a good break from the monotony of my studies.Don't really have mucch time, so I'll post pics when i get back from Thailand on the 10th. For thoes who are having their A levels prelims, I wish you the best of luck!

l288

Are you holding back, like the way I do?

'Cause I'm tryin', tryin' to walk away

Am I crazy or fallin' in love? Is it real or just another crush?

exams over.

2008-08-28T23:46:00.001+08:00

It's been a year and a half. Time files. Thing are going to be extremely busy for the next 2 weeks.

Tomorrow - SPVC meeting.

Sat: Camp Briefing.

Sun:Rest.

Monday: More camp briefing.

Tue - Fri: Leaders of Tomorrow camp ( Palau Sibu)

Sat - Wed: Thailand trip (Bangkok, el cheapo Reno Hotel)

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Sometimes, it so complicated, that I feel like giving up. But somehow, I still want to carry on. It's not easy, but special, and always rewarding. I have no idea where this road leads, but I'll follow it to the end. Every time I talk, I have no idea how to respond, how to answer or what to say. I'm always looking for that right thing to say, but I've never ever been in such a situation before, so there is nothing to base my answer on. This feels so...

Crush, affection, fondness, love, these are some of many classifications of a person's feelings. Why is it so hard to classify feelings?

>> Confidence is not the absence of self doubt, it is controlling self doubt

Would anyone want to hazard a guess?

l288

Zzzz...blogging from iPhone

2008-08-26T17:26:00.001+08:00

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